Blue Striker

Fantasy: Happiness is Quite Hard to Reach

2007-05-02T00:45:00.000-07:00

I did not expect that I will meet someone from Ilo-Ilo who will let me experience something new and but good... I never thought that I will have this experience in my life...

I fell in love with a person who I think can understand me, laugh with me, cry with me, comfort me, catch me, be my shoulder, and be more than my girlfriend... Well, I broke up with my girl for her... just for her...

After considering the possible problems that may arise due to this forbidden love, I broke up with the person... I told this person that I still love my girl and that I can't leave her hanging in the air...

But then I was wrong... I did not come back to my girl... I did not ask her to be back either... I judged wrong.. Now, I think the person who made me fell into a new kind of love does not want to back to me anymore...

Ngayon, natatakot siya na iwan ko lang siya ulit though now I am sincere with my thoughts... Despite all odds... Kait alam kong maraming aayaw... kahit alam kong madaming bawal...

I guess happiness is hard to reach...

SGV... Now at hand

2007-04-18T20:10:00.002-07:00

Well, nasa sgv na ako... im currently on my 5th and a half month... by the 6th of May, I may still be with the Company or I have moved to another... depende kung mareregular o hindi... sana maregular... Waehehe... I had special experiences with the Company... Syempre, I learned much in audit... Well, its ups and downs... I knew how hard it is to join anaudit company... walang tulugan... walang social life... (though i did not let myself lose such part of me)... and higit sa lahat, i became Amy's boyfriend...

Masaya sa company kahit mahirap.. sobrang hirap.. syempre kasi andyan mga ofismates ko na pasaway... tulad ko...

Nga pala... Im the top performer during our training... hehehe.... bibo daw kasi ako... binoto tuloy ako ng mga traning mates ko... At least, kahit hindi ako cum laude, I was able to prove that I can win a game... hehehe... Tapos ang group namin (Ako lang ang lalaki with Michelle, Avril, Arbhe, Grace, and Erika)... saya namin... mga girls ang pussy cat dolls tapos ako si Daddy J... hahaha... creative kasi sila...

Sa ofis naman, ang mga kasama ko ay sina Michelle, Ramil, Christopher, Vincent, Rose Anne, Fidelis, at Jessie...

Si Jessie ang pinakauna sa amin... 2005 graduate siya kaso di siya agad pumasok sa sgv kaya halos magkasunod lang kami... actually 2 mos ahead siya sa akin... galing siyang ibang auditing firm... mabait siya at kwela din... pasaway din siya... palakihan kami tiyan... wahehehe...

Si lyza naman ang inconsistent na auditor... hehehe... yun ang tukso ko sa kanya kasi sobrang pabago-bago ang isip niya... she decides today and changes her decision the next hour or day... pero magaling siya... although minsan nawawalan ng self confidence.. Matapang na suplada pero matatakutin... wehehehe...

Si Christopher... Ang aking katukayo sa ofis... lagi kaming nagaaway... (hindi away na away talaga ah) kundi tuksuhan... Sabi nya nga sa akin, ako na daw ang pinakamalapit sa kanya sa opis... kasi kami lang ang nakakaasaran ng sobra... minsan beyond limits na pero la lang sa amin yun... hehehe... parang di officemates... kasi magkaibigan kami... saka alam namin na hanggang ganunan lang yun... wlang personalan... lagi kami nagsasayaw... tapos siya nagmomodel ng patawa... kami rin yung lagi nagtatawanan sa sarili namin pati sa ibang tao... kapag inaaway kami... hehehe... magaling yun lalo na sa analysis... minsan inaaway nami yung officemate namin sa asaran kapag kami lang ang magkasama sa audit... hehehe...

Si Vincent... Ang bata... kasi baby look ang tawag sa kanya sa ofis saka maaramdaman mong hindi pa siya ganung ka-mature pagdating sa work... minsan isip bata pa din though ako din naman eh ganun... haahha... sarap kasama si vincent... although minsan seryoso din... ako kasi lively... yaw ko ng malungkot ecept kapag may rush audit na gagawin... kumbaga cramming na... Nililigawan nya yung classmate ko nung 1st year college (Si PAZ)... Actually sila na nung high school... nagbreak lang ata sila bago magcollege... galing din yung si vincent... cum laude yun...

Si rose ann... sabay kami kumain ng breakfast kapag nagoovernight ako sa ofis... hehehe... Kasi kami lagi ang mahilig kumain... share kami sa fud ko or fud niya... or minsan sa fud ng iba pa naming kasama... hehehe... minsan niloloko siya kasi lakas siyang kumain... siya 2 rice.. ako 1 lang... pero sexy tawag namin sa kanya... hehehe

Si Ramil... wla lang... Sobrang tahimik... Summa Cum laude siya... Di nakikipagbond sa mga new staff kaya tawag ko sa kanya minsan eh senior na... or in-charge... naipadala na siya sa kenya for audit... sayang sana ako din... pero di naman kasi namin client yun eh... nakakalaban ko siya sa mga contests dati... la ako masabi sa kanya eh excep siya ang pinakamayaman sa amin pag payday kasi malaki sweldo nya coz summa siya...

Si Michelle... kala ko nung una, cool siya... pero di din pala maxado... kasi tahimik siya at sobrang seryoso... Inaway nya pa ako dati nung nagjoke ako dati sa kanya... magna cum laude siya... minsan niloloko namin siya ni Chris... kasi nayayabangan kami sa kanya minsan... Boastful shrimp tawag namin sa kanya o kaya ang famous "basic na basic Php 6,400.00 lang ang sweldo" na line ang tukso namin... hehehe... Kasi malaki sweldo niya compared sa amin dahil nga magna siya...

Sayang, kung naging cum laude lang ako eh di sana malaki din ang sweldo ko... huhuhu... ayos lang yun kasi for sure naman, pag umalis ako ng sgv, i can get a better and more compensating na job...

Nga pala, lapit na ako umalis sa company... kasi nahihirapan na ako at hindi ako makaipon.... practicality ksai ang gusto ko munang unahin ngayon... syempre kailangang makatulong sa pamilya...

Ayun... till next blog...

SGV... Now at hand

2007-04-18T20:10:00.001-07:00

SGV Dream...

2006-12-23T00:56:00.000-08:00

When I as a child, I dreamt of becoming an astronaut... Well, I guess every boy would dream of becoming one after seeing sci-fi movies which usually is the subject of most cartoons and 'for children' movies...

After two years (in grade six), I realized that to be an astronaut would just be a dream... And I have to shift to one which is more realizable / attainable... Than I wanted to be a pilot... I like to travel... I like to go places and see beautiful things... I don't want to confine my heart to just one place... I like to experience adventure... to get new things others don't see... Then, once again, I realized that I can't be one... Considering practicality, I thought that it would not be within our living and support capacity...

So I decided to be a doctor... I want to help those in need... I want to save lives... I want to be of service to mankind... (Its so righteous...) I thought that to be a doctor is a fulfillment of my dream to be one who will be remembered by everybody... Not just by my clan, nor the next family generations, but by the whole world... Then one day, I thought that it was not for me.

There is only an hour left before I have to pass my application form to the registrar of my alama mater - De La Salle University - Dasmariñas and I'm still confused with what to take. Then I decided to give my first choice to BS Accountancy, then second to BS Nursing, and thrid to Political Science. My high school assessments revealed though that I will excel with Communication Arts. But I did not choose the course because I thought that it could just help me as a hobby / interest and nothing more.

Now, I am a Certified Public Accountant and it feels great that with this profession I as able to make my family proud... I'm working at SGV and it took me 4 years to realize such goal... I got high scores in the board exams... I got good impressions from my seniors... I got everything... (Well, except the salary)... But its still okey... Its enough that I had all of these...

But suddenly I realized that I'm still not happy... I know the work... I think I like to be something different... I don't know if I had really reached my dream or I did not make it to my personal legend? When I read "The Alchemist", I suddenly realized that maybe this really is not what I want to... I want to travel, to be a chef... to be a doctor... I don't know... The only problem is how I would be able to know what my real dream is? Are there omens that will lead me to what I should become? I really don't know... Or will I still know?

Am I Half Crazy?

2006-11-11T05:58:00.000-08:00

Half Crazy - Johnny Gill

Know I havent slept a week at all since you've been gone

And my eyes are kinda tired from crying all night long

Know I've never been too good at cooking just for one

It's so lonely here without you darling come back home

'Cause I'm half crazy

Feelin' sorry for myself

Half crazy

Worried you'd find someone else to love

Know life hasnt been much fun at all since you've been gone

And my eyes being to feel each time I hear a sound

I spent every minute asking myself what went wrong

Can't we try to talk it over baby come back home

'Cause I'm half crazy

Feelin' sorry for myself

Half crazy

Worried you'd find someone else to love

But baby there is no-one else

Half crazy

For everything you saying

Half crazy

No one else could love you like I do

(break)

'Cause I'm half crazy

Feelin' sorry for myself

Half crazy

Worried you'd find someone else to love

But baby there is no-one else

Half crazy

For everything you saying

Half crazy

No one else could ever love you

No one else could ever be

Half crazy

Feeling sorry for myself

And I'm worried you'll find someone else

Feeling sorry for myselfHalf Crazy

(faded)

Nagugluhan na ko

2005-09-21T02:31:00.000-07:00

ok... alam ko na marami din akong kamalian sa buhay... alam ko rin na hindi ako perpektong tao... pero bakit naman ganun... lagi akong naiipit sa mga bagay na kailangan akong mag-give way sa iba... o kaya naman na ako ang maunang humingi ng sorry... i know that its the right thing to do... pero bakit lagi na lang...

anyway, galit sa akin si ChenG pero hindi ko alam kung bakit... siguro nalaman nya na yung tungkol kay lhen... hindi ko kasi sinabi sa kanya nung una kasi alam kong hindi dapat... pero sa palagay mo ay may nagsabi na sa kanya na hindi naman dapat magsabi...

Si jojo naman ay nagalit din pero dahil lang sa misunderstanding.. ewan ko ba

Si tin-tin naman ay naiinis din dahilsa isang bagay na ipinipilit nya na alam ko na hindi ko naman talaga alam...

Well, retreat na namin sa friday hanggang saturday... sana magkaayos-ayos na kami...

I Say A Little Prayer for You

2005-09-15T02:10:00.000-07:00

Say a little prayer for you,
Say a little prayer for you

From the moment mi wake up
Before mi put on mi make up
Mi say a little prayer for you

While combing mi hair now
Mi a wonder what dress me wear now
Mi say a little prayer for you

Forever and ever
You’ll stay in my heart and I’ll love you
Forever and ever
We never will part how I’ll love you
Together together
That’s how it should be
Without you would only be heartbreak for me

Mi run for the bus love
Mi ride and mi think about us love
Mi say a little prayer for you

At work mi just take time
And all through mi coffee break time
Mi say a little prayer for you

Forever and ever
You’ll stay in my heart and I’ll love you
Forever and ever
We never will part and I’ll love you
Together together
That’s how it should be
Without you would only be heartbreak for me

Say a little prayer for you, mi a go say
A little prayer for you

My darling believe me, for me
There is no one but you,
Say you’ll love me too.

Forever and ever
You’ll stay in my heart and I’ll love you
Forever and ever
We never will part and I’ll love you
Together together
That’s how it should be.....
Forever and ever
You’ll stay in my heart and I’ll love you
Forever and ever
We never will part and I’ll love you
Together together
That’s how it should be without you
Would only be heartbreak for me...

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Hmmm... The song is very beautiful... Isn't it... This is one of my favorite songs... Well, this version is by Diana King... Little as you know, I am a hopeless Romantic... I started lovin this song since the time I watched the movie My Bestfriend's Wedding... Medyo kasi nainlove ako sa movie though hindi maganda yung naging outcome ng lovelife ni Julia Roberts... I realized na love really is when you'er able to let go of your loved one so that she will be able to enjoy her life and go with the one she really love... Alam mo yun... Nakakaawa si Julia Roberts for she did not have his bestfriend... but even though, nakaktuwa naman kasi kung makikita mo yung ginawa nya dahil sa pagmamahal nya sa bestfriend nya... Minsan, i ask myself... kaya ko kaya yung ginawa nya... I mean, in my part... Can I let go... so that she may be happy? Can i sacrifice for love... Siguro oo... Like what others are doing...

Lam nyo... Try watchin' the movie... Its so beautiful... Its so lovely... Its so romantic and touching... Tinamaan talaga ako...

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Ok... Another movie I watched was IF ONLY by Jennifer Love Hewitt... Maganda talaga... One of the best... I was inlove with the movie... This is another form of sacrifice for love... Ang nangyari kasi ay parang nagkaroon ng premoinition yung lalaki na yung gf nya ay maaaksidente... Tapos ayun... Panaginip lang pala pero yung mga nangyari sa panaginip eh nagkakatotoo... So ang ginawa nya eh triny nyang ilayo yung gf nya sa aksidente and yung time na alam nya ng mamamatay yung gf nya sa car accident eh ang ginawa nya na lang eh niyakap nya ang gf nya para siya ang mamatay... Out of love, he did it! What a sacrifice for love!!! Nakakaiyak/Nakakalungkot yung nangyari kasi somehow, perople will see it absurd to do all such things just for love... Pero sa ibang tao... kahit buhay nila itataya nila para sa taong mahal nila... Parang ako... Lahat gagawin ko para sa taong mahal ko... Kasi alam ko ding kung mawawala siya, eh parang nawala na rin ako...

FrEiNdZ FoReVeR

2005-09-13T03:26:00.000-07:00

'''gRaDuAtIon SoNg'''
...FrIeNdS fOrEvEr...

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

*Repeat chorus*

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

*Repeat chorus 3x*

Nakakaiyak pala ang Huli

2005-09-13T03:00:00.000-07:00

Hi guys!
We had our said to be last performance in college in the JPIA General Assembly... Nalungkot ako... Sobra... kasi we had this play which was directed by Tom... its a pooling of ideas from the whole class which syempre puro kalokohan na naman... We had our very own Imang (Fatima from Kampanerang Kuba), our own casts of superheroes, Darna portrayed by Piolo and Krystala protrayed by Tope... with matching costumes ha... And we also had the four sisters of Encantadia especially represented by Tim, Natz, Kris (with the prostitute like hair), and Jojo... Syempre, they all look bad kasi muscled guys tapos biglang nagdamit babae... But it brought laughter all throughout the play... I played Boy Abunda who is the judge in the courtroom while Jobel, Kristine, and Lourdez (i think) were the three sisters in Kampanerang Kuba... Lou Anne played as Veronica while Divine and Tristan played the roles of Valentina and Prinsipe Abok respectively... We used such characters and relate it with the present political crises we have... Zyrine played the role of PGMA who said I'm sorry for her unrewading acts and many more... I was very glad for all of my classmates participated in the activity... After the play, a powerpoint presentation was made and presented by Tom with matching song (Graduation Song by Vitamin C which implies friends forever)... It showed the development of the whole BSA / BSM graduating class batch 2005. Naiyak ako... Nakita nila yung devt ko from mataba pa ako until the time i got slimmer... kung pano yung laughter ng bawat isa... the company and memories we've shared... lahat talaga... ang ganda nga eh... Sana hindi kami magkahiwahiwalay na magkakaclassmates kasi mahal ko sila at i really feel good when im with my BSA / BSM 41 class... though syempre may mga misunderstandings... ganun naman talaga... its natural... right? hehe... I just hope that we'll all be friends forever...

TIME after TIME

2005-09-13T02:51:00.000-07:00

TIME AFTER TIME

I'm lying in my bed
Hear the clock tickin
I think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion, there's nothing new
Flashback, warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after...
Sometimes you'll picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me
I can't hear what you say
And you say, go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
CHORUS:
If you're lost, you can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall, I will catch you
I will be waiting
Time after time
(repeat)
After my picture fades
And darkness has turned to gray
Watching through windows
You're wondering if I'm okay
Secret stolen
All from deep inside
The 808's on time
(CHORUS)
And you say, go slow
I fall behind
The 808's on time
(CHORUS)
(repeat)
Time after time...
(until fades)

Mothers' Day Specials

2005-05-04T14:39:00.000-07:00

Essay naman ng konte... Hehehe... For the Mothers' Day... ATLAS of MY WORLD
By: Blue Striker

“She broke the bread into two fragments and gave it to her children, who ate with eagerness. ‘She hath kepth none for herself’,” grumbled the sergeant.
“Because she is not hungry,“ said the soldier.
“’No’, said the sergeant, ‘because she is a mother’”
- written by Victor Hugo

That is how great a mother is… She’ll do anything for her children… for her family… She’ll shed even her last tear…
I remember a time, or should I say the times wherein I asked my mother to wake me by 11:00 pm so I could study my accounting lessons for the next day. Although she had to wake up early (about 4:00 am) to go to work, she did not hesitate to give me answers like “OKEY”, “SURE”, and “SIGE ANAK”. I did not actually realize the burden that she have taken by not sleeping just to wake me --- accompanied by the fact that knowing that I have slept at 9:00 p.m. already, she provided an allowance of an hour before waking me… She was awake until 12! It was also followed by the very big mistake I was always doing --- Telling her that late, “Ma, mamaya na lang pong 3:00… Inaantok pa po ako eh… Thank you na lang po…” And she would wake up by 3:00 to wake me up. Good thing, I had the strength and sensitivity to wake up (kapal na kasi ng mukha ko kung mamaya na lang ulit!) Hmmm… What will you do if I do that to you? Haha! I think by now, I’m already dead… Of course you’ll kill me for asking you to do something which will result to nothing!
While in vacation, I tried to reflect with myself and then the “waking up” idea popped into my mind. I asked myself (you better ask yourself too!), “Did I actually do that?” I couldn’t imagine how stupid and immature I was when I did that… With the fact that it was done for a number of times… I was very insensitive! I was not even able to thank her in a very formal and appreciating manner… Too bad…
You may say that I am being a little dramatic for writing this but I’m pretty sure that in one way or another, its not just me who has done it and is NOW contemplating with such a crazy idea. Well, I’m not saying that you are doing it (or maybe?)… But its just a sort of reflecting on what our parents particularly our mothers have done for us… I was thinking of a funny topic but my soul has taken me to this thought --- paying tribute to the person whom carried us and will always carry us towards life… Our mothers…
Mothers are like ATLAS (the one carrying the world)! They would carry everything from small to big things… happiness to sadness… Likewise, their love is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path. They are unique!
Have you ever wondered how they were doing it? Look at the scenario --- They have to manage our homes and do some budgeting, go to work everyday, support their husbands and help their children develop intellectually, spiritually, and emotionally, act as a queen of peace to them (like what usually happens in our home), and finally, absorb everybody’s problems. Work! Work! Work! Can you do that? They don’t even have the time for themselves! Their lives are of something no one would aspire to have!
What they should get is full appreciation… Tribute… Acclaim… Greatest recognition of all (even greater than a noble prize)… They are not just national heroes! But, the best and finest among the National Heroes!
I wanted to thank my mom for everything she have done for me… From conceiving me to me now! She has made me… She has changed me and turned my life into something worth living for (and of course, you are too!)… I wanted to thank her for her greatest sacrifices I could never pay in any way. I wanted to ask for an apology for every wrong thing I have done to her… I am sorry…
You! Yes you… I seek for your help to ask your mothers to read this, if not the whole work, even this part…
To all mothers, we love you! This is for you! You are the most promising… The BEST! The greatest… The angel to whom we owe our lives…
From Howard Johnson:
M is for the million things she gave me,
O means only that she’s growing old,
T is for the tears she shed to save me,
H is for her heart purest gold,
E is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
R means right, and right she’ll always be.
Put them together, they spell:
“MOTHER”… A word that means the world to me…

hahaha

2005-02-13T00:02:00.000-08:00

Hey... Its been a long time since I last worte in this blog... tssskkk... I was really busy this semester... Ngayon nga lang ulit ako nakapaginternet eh...

For the past few days, should I say months, ang daming nangyari... May mga nakakatawa at meron namang nakakainis... At any rate, anthing that happened has their very own special reasons for my very own benefit... hehehe...

Di na ko masyadong nageexpects sa scholarship ko... I got very low grades in Law and in Finance... Sayang nga kasi ngayon pang last sem ng 3rd year ako mawawala sa scholarship pati sa Dean's List... Well, inanticipate ko na yun... Kainis nga eh... Tatawanan ko na lang ang mga ito para hindi na ako malungkot... Hope ull be laughing with me guys...

Our REED professor required us to make a 10 page Christian Praxis na kung tawagin namin ng mga klasmeyts ko ay "THESIS"... Sa totoo lang eh excited na akong maghanap ng good topic for this report kaso medyo tinatamad ako kasi isinabay pa ang REED na report na ito sa mga major requirements namin sa skul... haaaayyyy...

I eagerly asked a question to one of my professors but then she answered me with "I don't expect a question like that coming from you..." Well, i felt a little downed by the words coz I thought that I have lost my dignity, my pride, and everything inside the classroom... (dinagdagan pa ba naman ng kinaiinisan kong classmate ng mga reactions na "naaaayyyy""nyaaaannn"...) Pero syempre medyo over reacting lang ako sa mga feelings na toh... Lam nyo naman na exagerated ako most of the times eh... Pero talagang parang naisip ko na napahiya ako?... Kasi diba ako yung taong easily hurt ang feelings... But then I realized through a reflection from my close friends that maybe what our professor wanted to tell me is that she is not expecting such a question because she is expecting me to ask something more intelligent (perhaps of a higher level)... Di naman ako nerd... Di ako nagyayabang... Siguro nga medyo natanga lang nung mga time na yun... Pero syempre hindi naman noh... I'm not perfect... May mga bagay din akong hindi ganong kabilis na maintindihan, though may mga times talaga na I try to make a fool out of myself, acting as if standing in a lower sense of knowledge para lang magpatawa and to give life sa mga usapan... (I think la namang masama dun diba?!?!?) pero sa totoo, talagang alam ko naman... Siguro nga mali ang kwestyon ko and maybe its just my prof's way of telling me to stop acting like that and maintain my high standards? (Yabang ko naman...) hehehe... anyway, tapos na yun... Basta pagaaralan ko muna lahat ng kwestyons ko para hindi na ako masabihan ng ganun...

Balik sa REED... pinag-group na kami... And know what? My groupmates include the two persons who had contributed much in my love history... Si LEN (whom i still love...) and Cheng (who became my gf for 3 months)... Grabe tawanan ng tawanan ang mga klasmeyt ko saka walang tigil sa katutukso... kainis nga eh... hmmm... pero ako naman syempre gustong gusto ko... Makakasama ko ulit ang pinakamamahal ko... Though hindi nya alam na I still have feelings to her... Sabi ko kasi eh wala na eh... hehehe...

My sister is currently staying with my aunt in Makati... Kainis nga eh kasi hindi ko na nakikita ang baby namin na si PB... Misss ko na siya pwera pag nag-aaral kasi hindi ako makaaral kapag nandito yung bata dahil laging nakikipaglaro sa akin... Eh syempre ayaw ko naman na hindi pagbigyan yung kagustuhan nun... Ako pa, eh ang bait-bait kong bata... Hahaha...

Okey, hanggang dito na lang muna... blog ulit ako mamaya... Ingatz... Happy Valentines!!!

Bagsak... Lagpak... Salpak...

2004-12-18T23:58:00.000-08:00

Hey... How are you blogger? (Ano ba yun?) Anyway... I had a very exhausting time for the first two months of this semester...

Sa JPIA... Pinagalitan kami ni mam eden dahil sa hindi namin nagagampanan na maigi yung mga responsibilities namin sa JPIA. Ako, personally, alam kong I was not able to give my very best for my social service job... Well, I can't back out coz I chose to do it. Thus, I must stand firm on my decision and words... Para kasing failure yung first semester na status ng JPIA... And I think its because of me... Hmmmm... Ewan ko lang din... O siguro lang masyadong mataas ang expectations sa aming mga present members of the executive board ng JPIA that's why ganun yung nangyayari... Maybe we also tried to do our best, yun nga lang, our best is not good enough... (Kanta ba toh)... Hehehe...

In Academics naman, ang dami kong major na talagang pinahihirapan ako... Sa Advanced Accounting eh talagang nahirapan ako sa mga naunang lessons... Madali lang naman talaga siya kung iisipin kasi dati pa namin yun lesson... Its just that I did not give enough effort to study in that subject coz I thought its just a review ng mga alam ko na dati... Inisip ko na baka pwede na ang stock knowledge... And I failed... Hindi pala... Mas kailangan ko pala na mag-aaral dahil first year pa nga pala ako nun at hindi ko na maalala... ang pangit nga ng start ng class ko dun sa subject na yun eh... Bagsak ako dun sa Partnership and Corporation Accounting... Hindi pa nga pumasok ng 60% eh... Kainis talaga... But even though, it was compensated naman ng mga exams ko sa Joint Venture and Consignment Accounting... Maganda kasi yung mga results ng exams ko dun... Nga pala si Mam Elma Mallorca and teacher ko dun.

Next is Cost Accounting... medyo nahihirapan din ako dun sa subject na yun kasi medyo mahirap talaga... lalo na kapag hindi ka nakapagbasa ng buk... Eh diba hindi nga ako mahilig magbasa lalo na kapag tinatamad... Mas gusto ko kasi yung pinakikinggan... Tapos saka ko lang babasahin kapag may part na hindi talaga maintindihan... So far, okey naman yung mga exams ko dun. Its just that I think I did not reach my expectations... hehehe... Kasi diba humahabol ako sa scholarship...

Ang pinakahirap ako sa mga subjects ko ay ang Financial Management... Grabe... Alam nyo po ba kung ilan lang ako sa Prelim exams ko dito? 45%... Nakakahiya kasi isinasama pa naman nila ako sa ACPACI tapos bagsak naman pala ako sa exam... Alam mo yun... Parang la akong karapatan... Kasi yung huling part ng lessons eh hinding-hindi ko talaga naintindihan... As in... Nanghuhula na nga lang ako nung exam eh... Too bad, mali-mali ang mga hula ko kasi hindi naman talaga ako magaling manghula.

I am also taking Taxation na isa pang pasaway sa mga subjects ko... Ang hirap talaga nun... kainis... talaga... Kasi alam mo ba na ang prelim term namin ay umabot sa halos 3/4 ng libro... Grabe... Hindi ko man lang nga nasaulo yung mga ibang terms na dapat kong sauluhin eh... Nakakainis.

Sa Business Law naman, yung Law on Partnership and Corporations... medyo o talagang terror ang prof namin pero masayang kausap. Napakabait nya at considerate. Ang problem ko nga lang eh kung ano ang nangyayari sa mga exams ko sa kanya... Di kasi mataas ang mga nakukuha kong grades... hehehe... Tapos nakakatakot pa yung mga recitation namin sa kanya... As in... Hehehe...

Sana sa kabila ng mga pagbagsak ko at paglagpak sa mga exams, recitations, expectations, goals, at iba pa eh makayanan ko pa ring habulin ang grades sa midterm at finals tapos maabot ko pa rin yung scholarship ko... At least matutulungan ko pa rin yung parents ko.

Hirap ng ganto...

2004-11-17T01:23:00.000-08:00

HAAAYYYY!!!... It has been so long since I last post a blog in this journal... Dami na nangyari... Hindi ko na alam kung saan sisimulan... I had become very very very busy these past few months... Mga accounting works and assignments, mga reports, not to mention the number of times na nagpunta kami sa Makati and Ortigas to conduct interviews and researches... Grabe talaga! I did not even have time for myself and my girlfriend... That's why...

WE BROKE UP! Yeah... We broke up two days before the classcard distribution... I don't know... Siguro talagang bad lang ako or hindi ko pa kayang ihandle ang relationship... Or maybe there is other reasons I could not tell to anybody except to those who are closestssss to me... Yan, daming s ha... Ibig sabihin, yun lang mga taong malapit na malapit lang sa akin ang nakakaalam kung ano pa yung ibang reason... I think I just made the right decision why I broke up with Cheng... Why?
I think its the best alternative than by staying with her in a relationship that I know and I think will not work that good for the two of us... I don't what it to be in a way that she is the only one keeping the flame within the relationship glowing... I don't want that... What I want kasi is something wherein both of us is working... Kumbaga give and take... Eh kaso ang nangyari lalo na nung mga latter part eh take lang ako ng take... Siya lang kasi yung lumalabas na concerned pa sa partner... Hmmm... I was concerned... I really was... But the thing is "Action speaks louder than voice" and I was not able to put it into action... Kumbaga puro sa salita ko lang nasasabi... I know nahihirapan siya and ayoko ng ganun... Aaminin ko, mas priority ko ang studies ko... Kasi dun umaasa ang parents ko... And if I won't hold on with that priority, I might lose my scholarship... Marami pa namang oras... After college and after I become successful, saka na lang yan... Just don't know kung ganun nga... Ang gulo noh...
Second reason ko is that I missed my barkada, MYTROPA... Hindi na kasi ako masyadong nakakasabay sa kanila sa lunch or nagkakaroon ng time para makipagusap sa kanila... Hindi ko kasi matiis na hindi gawin yung mga bagay na ginagawa ko dati nung la pa akong gf... Yung pakikipagchat sa mga kaibigan ko sa ROTONDA sa La Salle... Ewan ko ba! Siguro nga I'm not yet ready... When would I? I don't know... "Time will come, I'll be..." I think all I have to do is wait.... wait... and wait...
Third and the most significant reason kung bakit ko yun ginawa is I think what I felt about her is just enfatuation... Tama ba yung spelling? Hehehe... I don't know... Nun kasing time na yun eh I'm still in a state wherein I'm finding LOVE... Hindi naman para macompensate yung broken love ko kundi para muli kong maexperience yung LOVE na yun... 2 years kasi akong nawalan ng gf eh... Since malapit ka pa rin sa akin... I'll admit it! Hindi pa rin nawawala ang LOVE ko para kay Ronalynne... Ewan ko ba kung ano nakain ko at hanggang ngayon eh nafifeel ko pa rin yung LOVE ko sa kanya... Nakakainis kasi ayaw mawala... Nagseselos ako kapag smay nakikita akong kasama siya na iba lalo na nung nakita kong naging close sila ni PIOLO... Kainis... Hindi ko maexplain... Pero hindi ko naman pwedeng ssabihin yun kay Cheng dahil alam kong magagalit siya at iisipin niyang niloko ko lang siya... Kaya ko naman kasi yun ginawa (BREAK UP) ay dahil ayaw ko ng palakihin pa yung burden or lalo pang magkamali... I wanted to finish the relationship already dahil ayaw kong lokohin si CHENG... Mahal ko siya... Oo... At dahil dun, ayaw kong masaktan yung damdamin niya lalo pa't alam kong hindi ko kayang ibigay yung binibigay niy sa akin na pagmamahal...
Ang hirap ng kalagayan ko... Or baka ako lang nagpapa-complicate... Ewan ko ba... Naaalala ko tuloy yung sa spider man na "LOVE should never be complicated. You should not keep it inside cause it will make you sick..." and it did... It made me sick... Lagi ko kasing naiisip... Haaaayyyy...

Long Long Time...

2004-11-17T01:19:00.000-08:00

"Find your destiny... Serendipity..."

Mahirap... Malungkot... Masaya...

2004-08-20T15:40:00.000-07:00

"Find your destiny... Serendipity..."

MAHIRAP...
I had a very hectic schedule this past few days or should I say months... Grabe! Halos 3 hours na lang ang tulog ko... Siguro ganun nga talaga kapag estudyante... Ako din naman ang magbebenefit nito in the future...

We went to Prudential Bank Main Office sa Ayala and Securities and Exchange Commission to get some information about our project sa Accounting. The topic is Business Combination... And yun nga yung Combination ng Pilipinas at Prudential Bank ang naisip namin ng mga ka-group ko... We spent a lot sa SEC sa pagkuha ng documents na kailangan namin.... Kala nga namin eh parang photocopy lang ang bayaran dun... Yun pala, para kang napaprint sa computer center... Pero okey lang kasi satisfying naman ang service dun sa government office na yun eh... Ang problem na lang namin is sa Prudential Bank dahil ayaw nilang maglabas ng information tungkol sa company... Thus, hindi namin makukuha yung kinakailangan naming information... Kainis nga eh...

MALUNGKOT...
Change topic... Nawalan ako ng wallet sa loob ng room ko sa class... Sayang nga eh... at nakakainis dahil I wasn't expecting na kung mawawalan man ako ng wallet eh sa room pa mangayari which only means that only one of my classmates ang gumawa nun... Lam nyo yun?!? Nakakawalanggana kapag alam mo na merong nakikipaglokohan sayo sa loob ng room... Nakakawala rin ng trust... Buti nga kahit papaano eh tinulungan ako ng mga tropa ko by comforting me and syempre ng girlfriend ko by giving me hope na maibabalik pa yon although hindi na possible ang na I can deal with such a problem...

MASAYA...
I haven't tell you nga pala... I already have a girlfriend. Her name is Rhocell... She is my classmate since 2nd year... Mabait, loving, trustworthy, caring, thoughtful, and friendly siya na tao... She loves me a lot and I love her too... Very much... Sa kanya ko nakita yung tunay na love na hindi ko nakita sa gf ko dati... I hope na magtagal kami at makayanan namin ang mga problems na maeencounter namin... By the way, katatapos lang ng 1st monthsary namin... Its last August 12... Birthday nya nung naging kami... Ang saya noh... Dati ko pa siya crush... Mga vacation nagstart and then naging kami... Ang sarap nga ng feeling eh.. Although somewhat nakakapanibago... Basta ang alam ko eh masaya ako sa nangyayari sa akin...

ByE..bYe...ByE...bYe...ByE...bYe...ByE...bYe...

2004-06-30T01:19:00.000-07:00

Me...

Hay...

2004-06-22T03:59:00.000-07:00

"Find your destiny... Serendipity..."

Nakakapagod... Talaga... Naiinis na nga ako kasi lagi0lagi na lang akong may ginagawa. Katatapos lang ng exam ko sa LAW saka sa AUDITING THEORY. Nakakainis kasi 2 days kong napag-aralan yung Auditing tapos 14 lang ang score ko. Tapos yung sa law eh okey lang naman. Kaso, yung sa bonus question eh mali kasi hindi pala unconstitutional yung law na binigay sa akin ni Lou Ann... Pero okey lang...

I am so exhausted! Kasi naman gabing-gabi na ako natutulog para mag-aral. Tapos isama mo pa yung mga obligations and responsibilities ko as JPIA. Ang hirap talaga. Wala na akong pahinga! Sa bagay, kelangan ko naman talaga yun. Saka, pinasok ko yun syempre, kailangan kong i-face yung mga consequences na yun. Diba?

I have problems regarding my position in the PCG (Peer Counselors Group). Kasi parang hindi ko na kaya na ma-maintain yung responsibility ko bilang President. Parang mahihirapan na ako dahil na rin sa dami ng majors ko ngayon. sana lang makaya ko.

Hanggang dito na lang ulit!

Bye! God bless me, my family, friends, and all the readers of this blog!

Law...

2004-06-17T19:23:00.000-07:00

"Find your destiny... Serendipity..."

I had my first class in law yesterday... Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi pinayagan kong talunin ng takot yung confidence ko na makapagsalita sa harap ng professor... Natatakot kasi ako sa prof namin...

Ako ang kaunahang tinawag sa aming mga Accountancy majors... Eh natakot talaga ako dahil sa mga kwento... Pero nag-aral ako talaga... In fact, gabing-gabi na nga ako natulog dahil sa pag-aaral dun eh... Although I admit na meron akong mga ilang hindi naintindihan. Tapos tinanong na ako... Dahil sa kaba ko eh hindi ko masabi yung sagot... Sayang talaga... Alam ko pa naman sana.. Kasi pinadistinguish sa akin yung MORAL LAW at saka yung NATURAL LAW. Pinagaraan ko yun eh. Kaso parang nawala lahat nung nakatayo na ako sa harapan ng professor.

Sana hindi na maulit yung nangyari... Promise ko sa sarili ko na pag-aaralan kong mabuti yung law at hindi ko na hahayaan pang maulit yung bagay na yun... Kasi, nahihiya talaga ako dahil alam ko ring malaki ang expectations sa akin ng iba saka parang fall para sa akin yun...

Buti na lang pala at nandyan sina Tristan, Divine, Jobelle, Dez, Gena, Jojo, Kris, Natz, saka iba ko pang tropa and classmates para icomfort ako... Salamat talaga! At least nawala yung lungkot na nararamdaman ko...

Its Okey...

2004-06-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

Wala lang... Kahapon eh nainis ako ng konti kasi I have a friend na pinulaan yung kanta namin nung LTS... Sa bagay, who knows kung pangit naman talaga kaya lang sarcastic lang din yung mga nakausap kong nauna... And siguro niloloko lang ako nun... Tropa ko naman kasi yun and close kami... Pero okey lang naman yun eh... Wala na yun... Parang naguluhan lang ako kasi alam nyo yun... Kung nakita ko na ayos naman, magkakaroon ako ng strength para magperform ulit... Kumbaga, self confidence...
Anywayz... Nagsimula na ang class at ang dami naming major... Ang hirap... Sana makaya ko... God bless sa akin saka sa mga classmates ko pati na rin sa family ko...
Hope, makakuha pa rin ako ng right grade para maabot ko yung scholarship ko...

This is the best!!! 2

2004-06-10T03:57:00.000-07:00

Kumanta rin kami ng song... yung HARANA ng AKAFELLAS... Ako, si Paul, Divine, Berna, Almada, Tsai, at saka si Kath... Ang ganda ng rhythm ng kanta pati na rin ng blending ng boses. Tapos pinagspaghetti nila ako na sayaw para magpatawa... Even though this is my first time to do this, nasayahan ako at talagang nag-enjoy... Na-feel ko kasi yung company within a team...
Habang nakatakip yung scarf sa mga mata namin at naghihintay sa mga activities and test na gagawin namin, nagkantahan kami ni Kath... Kinanta nya yung Dont Know What To Do Dont Know What To Say... Ang galing nga eh... Tapos yung Destiny, Even If, at iba pa... Ako ang nagrerequest ng mga kakantahin nya...
Kasama din sina Jobelle, Gena, Tim, Loanne, Rose Marie, Edhen, Paula, Shikai, Angge, at marami pang iba...
Nakilala ko rin si Maki na makulit pero mabait... CBASC Offier din siya at nakita ko na responsible at talagang dedicated din siya... Nakakatuwa nga eh.. Favorite nya yung kanta na Fallin... Tapos yung panlalaking version pa...
Si Kuya Sancho... Mas nakita ko yung dedication nya sa pamumuno sa CBA... Mas nakita ko na talagang nasa kanya yung blood ng isang tunay na leader and I really commend him for that... I will support him and I hope na magsucceed sya at ang buong CBA Family...
Thank you po God kasi binigay nyo sa akin ang pagkakataong maranasan toh...

This is the best!!!

2004-06-10T03:49:00.000-07:00

I attended the ECHO-LTS seminar... Masasabi ko, this is the best! I learned a lot! We had the best group (well, i suppose)... Ang galing... At ang dami kong nakilala... May mga bago akong kaibigan at kasama in serving others. I have new friends from the CBASC and from other organizations in the College.
Natutuhan ko yung tamang attitude ng isang leader... Na dapat laging present yung pagtutulungan sa isang grupo... Yung camaraderie at cooperation... Yung sensitivity ng bawat isa... and most of all, yung faith mo sa kapwa mo leader and syempre pati sa mga members.
May isang bagay na nabago din sa akin... Dati kasi eh hindi ako madaling magtiwala sa tao... Alam nyo yun... Pero because of an activity which is yung TRUST WALK, natuto akong magtiwala sa iba na hindi nila ako ipapahamak. Nakapiring ako na lumalakad kasama yung ibang team members. Ako ang leader at nakahawak lang sila lahat sa likod ko. From the CTH Kubo hanggang sa 5th floor ng CBA eh naglakad kami ng nakapiring at ang tanging sinusundan ko lang eh yung tunog ng palakpak ng facilitator. Ang galing nga kasi nakakasunod ako at ibinigay ko na talaga sa kanya yung tiwala ko... Ayun, we came safe sa taas ng building. Hindi nga ako makapaniwala na nagawa ko yun eh.
Ang galing talaga...

Hectic...

2004-06-07T15:07:00.000-07:00

We are very busy doing our jobs in JPIA... We usually go to school even though we dont have classes coz we need to conduct meetings, pass some paper works, and work for plans and projects of the organization. I just wish that we could finish all the tasks and I hope that we could also obtain successful results...

2004-06-07T15:05:00.000-07:00

My Org...

I love you!!!

2004-06-07T00:42:00.000-07:00

TRUE LOVE...
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty...
he said...no.

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever...
and he said no.

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,
and once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough.

As she walked away, tears streaming down her face
the boy grabbed her arm and said....

You're not pretty you're beautiful.

I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldnt cry if you walked away...I'd die...

Blue Striker

Fantasy: Happiness is Quite Hard to Reach

SGV... Now at hand

SGV... Now at hand

SGV Dream...

Am I Half Crazy?

Nagugluhan na ko

I Say A Little Prayer for You

***FrEiNdZ FoReVeR***

Nakakaiyak pala ang Huli

TIME after TIME

Mothers' Day Specials

hahaha

Bagsak... Lagpak... Salpak...

Hirap ng ganto...

Long Long Time...

Mahirap... Malungkot... Masaya...

Hay...

Law...

Its Okey...

This is the best!!! 2

This is the best!!!

Hectic...

I love you!!!

FrEiNdZ FoReVeR